Why should i ruin my life ??

As Raj walked in the street of his newly entered city, he was surrounded by the loneliness inspite of the huge crowd around him . He was filled with the feelings of sadness inspite of being with the friends he loves the most .He was loaded with the darkness inspite of the bright and twinkling city. The street was full of light, bright light. BUT THESE Lights could not lighten his inner.
It was dark , complete dark within him.
 And he knew that wherever he will go , whatever he does , he will not be able to get rid of the darkness.
Because that darkness is not a simple one. It is one of the most precious gift gifted by someone very special and hr never want to lose this special gift.
 Reason??
Reason its quite simple. You never want to forget gift gifted which  had been gifted by someone whom you never wanted to forget.
He entered in his room. He could see the cigarettes, drinks, and many things, what he had promised himself never to touch. He just took one cigarette, lighted it up, he took the drinks in a glass. With the hand full of glass and the fingers holding the cigarettes he went on terrace.  He thought, lets start all those things. NOW Whats the meaning of life, when she is not with him who was considered to be be. Whats the meaning of lifr when he does not have any place in her heart, whom he loved the most. He wanted to smoke. He wanted to take the sips of the drink on the table. He wanted to destroy his life. Hr wanted to get lost from the reality.
But suddenly, he realized something. There was a different force acting in his body .  There was something going inside him.Suddenly hr stood up. Took up the glass and just threw it.
 Why??
"Why should i ruin my life ??"
"Why should i give up my life just because of the one who has been with me just for few months or years.?"
"Why??"
"Why should i destroy the dreams of our parents who has a dream in their life since they had taken us in their lap for the very first time ??"
Just let her go.
Just let her get whatever she deserves.
And yes she deserves  silence.
And he  decided to Gift his silence and he did.
And she will be getting only these things
His silence, his ignorance , his hatred.
He stood up thinking"May be you do not consider me to deserve you but one day , i will bring such a time when you will not dare to even meet me, forget about deserving.
You just wait."
And thus a fire in his eyes and a storm in  heart, he moved.

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